I can remember a time in my life where I felt like my life did not matter. I would often look for a reason to hold on. Depression was my closest friend. I often felt as if life had dealt me a bad hand.
There seemed to be no one to talk to who could understand all of my pain, and my disappointment with life. Everything about my life seemed unfair. I had no father, my mother was present, but dealing with her own issues. So many people in my life disappointed me. I no longer trusted anyone.
I would often ask God why. Why so much pain and disappointment. How much did He really felt I could take. I would go through each day doing the best I could. Putting on a smiley face for for everyone else. Taking care of my responsibilities like a good girl should. But, everyday was a struggle to hold on to this life that I was give.
I did not have anyone back then to say to me, your life has a purpose, or you ar special and have so much to offer this world. I was so angry about that. No one was there to listen me, who would allow me to say what I really felt. "I am hurting inside" is what I felt like saying. I wanted to announce to the world that I had a voice and had something to say. But who cared, I used to say to myself.
I now realize that people are just so busy trying to figure out there own life, or feel like they do not want to intrude in other people's life. However, that is no the final answer for you, I am here to say that I am intruding. If you are reading this, great. I want you to know that I care, God cares. You are somebody, you are worth so much more than you can imagine. You have a purpose for your life.
Maybe the pain and disappointment that you are feeling seems to hard to bear at times. Maybe you are tired of simply existing and do not feel significant. However, I encourage you to hold on, one day everything will work out. Ask God to revealto you His purpose for your life. It's not as hard as you think. Sometimes it's as simple as helping someone who feels the hurt you feel, who can better understand where they are coming from.
Fight back, declare to make your life count for something. Pick up the pieces, dare to dream of a brighter future. Do something for yourself, like taking college courses, start working out, find a job, Join a church and become a part of a community. Volunteer with a program that supports others who are experiencing some of the things you are going through. Just don't give up. You matter, how you feel matters, what you have to say matters.
Feel free to speak up. Share your thoughts, your comments, or whatever you feel on this post.
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